currently

as you go
part of me wants to scream
"no, don't leave"
and yet
there is still another part of me
holding it back.

wow.

nothing like getting broke up via text message. go me.

I have decided that I will not be able to walk away from my relationship with E unless I know I have exhausted all efforts to make it work.
So here I am at my final idea.
Counseling.
I asked him if he as willing and he was hesitant at first but then came around.
=/

I forgot how much this hurts

Realizing that your relationship may have run it's course. Having "the talk". And the dam that broke upon coming to terms with that reality. I am scared. not gonna lie. I forgot how much heart break hurts, I am scared to pick up the pieces and I am scared to go at it alone. I am scared of losing my best friend. I am scared to truly be a single parent again, you have been so amazing. How can I be sure I am not making the biggest mistake of my life?