Wednesday, April 23, 2008

can't.sit.still.

i am leaving for So Cal in 4 hours. 
Going home always gives me a certain amount of anxiety, but today.. I am a wreck. I had to leave work early cause I felt nervous/nausea.

I need a valium.

It's not that I think the trip is going to suck, I think I am going to have a great time.. but still..this is excessive...
anywhoo.. hopefully I have a great story to tell when i get back..

xoxo

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

in the meantime

I'm learning my new life.
Creating endless projects to keep myself busy.
I have list of home furnishing I need to buy(new bed set, rice cooker, buffet table).. and some i just plain want (fancy cookware, high thread count sheets, extra fluffy pillowtop for the mattress i need to buy).
I take several cooking classes through out the year. I have recipe packets everywhere. I have decided to transpose all the recipes on to recipe cards and keep them all in a recipe box.
I have been spending lots of time with Anastasia trying to keep her mind off things and keep her positive. dreaming up new things to do with her.
I want to cook more, be more organized, have more fun, be a better friend, and to love myself more.

Monday, April 7, 2008

currently

as you go
part of me wants to scream
"no, don't leave"
and yet
there is still another part of me
holding it back.