Me: I don't know
Asia: Do you know anyone who does know?
Me: Uh... the internet?
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Fibromyagia, you win. for now.
Last night I passed out at like 8:30. Typically I am the girl who cannot sleep before 11. Woke up this morning, basic things are very difficult and very painful. And being in the office at 6:30 am, yeah that's painful too.
Right now, coffee is my hero. I made a freakin awesome latte if I do say so myself.
Right now, coffee is my hero. I made a freakin awesome latte if I do say so myself.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
sole provider
I am the Sole Provider for an amazing almost 9 year old girl. I hate saying that I am a "single mom", cause there is not much truth to that. While yes, I am the (mostly) financial sole provider, I am engaged to E, he is a perfect father figure in her life. We live together so his presense in her life is constant and more importantly, his commitment to be a great father to her is constant. They are amazing together.
Her father (V) just moved here about 6 months ago. *sigh* It's been an adjustment. He has been mostly absent for the couple years. He's coming off a coke habit and wants to be back in her life with all these big beautiful plans. And just like always the big beautiful plans fall apart with a billion excuses as to why. But to try to be positive - He is here, off the blow (at least, I hope he is), has a stable job, and I'm not quite sure if he has a place yet, but he has been comfortably couch surfing for the last few months. I have recieved about $100/month in support, but it's sporadic. But really $100 in the land of parenting is chump change. He's trying, and I totally respect that. He is a bigger presence in her life than he has been. I just want him to try a little harder, alot harder. We will get there, it'll just take time. I hope.
So I can't really claim the term "single mom". I do almost everything . The planning her life, PTA stuff, I pay ALL her expenses, etc etc. The only thing I don't do is drive her to school (cause either E or V does that)
So Sole Provider, I would claim "single mom" if E wasn't in my life.
Her father (V) just moved here about 6 months ago. *sigh* It's been an adjustment. He has been mostly absent for the couple years. He's coming off a coke habit and wants to be back in her life with all these big beautiful plans. And just like always the big beautiful plans fall apart with a billion excuses as to why. But to try to be positive - He is here, off the blow (at least, I hope he is), has a stable job, and I'm not quite sure if he has a place yet, but he has been comfortably couch surfing for the last few months. I have recieved about $100/month in support, but it's sporadic. But really $100 in the land of parenting is chump change. He's trying, and I totally respect that. He is a bigger presence in her life than he has been. I just want him to try a little harder, alot harder. We will get there, it'll just take time. I hope.
So I can't really claim the term "single mom". I do almost everything . The planning her life, PTA stuff, I pay ALL her expenses, etc etc. The only thing I don't do is drive her to school (cause either E or V does that)
So Sole Provider, I would claim "single mom" if E wasn't in my life.
Friday, January 4, 2008
heh. figures.
I had felt inspired to share myself and had this blog (poorly, I'm sure) written out. Somehow I accidently deleted the entire thing. Interweb Gods telling me that I suck. I had to write somthing just have not lost it in vain.
I have been kind of a sour puss or the last couple month. not sure if it's seasonal bullshit or what. I have just felt uninspired in life. Maybe I am still mourning the loss of my good friend.
Took some time off work and rested through the holidays, I'm feeling much better. My soul feels lighter. I was feeling so numb and disconnected. I kept thinking it would pass and it just kept going.
le sigh
I had some internal conflicts going on for awhile. I have spent the last year nuturing a new friendship. Spending time, long talks, getting to know them. Friendships. They are like dating! So yeah, turns out, this person slowly has revealed themselves to not be what/who they say they are. Reveal themselves to actually not be a good person at all (in my estimation). The slow break up of a friendship because the other party won't even communicate with me, even when I have done nothing but be an awesome friend to this person.
meh.
so I have come to the decision that it's over. and it hurts like breaking up with a boyfriend.
I have been kind of a sour puss or the last couple month. not sure if it's seasonal bullshit or what. I have just felt uninspired in life. Maybe I am still mourning the loss of my good friend.
Took some time off work and rested through the holidays, I'm feeling much better. My soul feels lighter. I was feeling so numb and disconnected. I kept thinking it would pass and it just kept going.
le sigh
I had some internal conflicts going on for awhile. I have spent the last year nuturing a new friendship. Spending time, long talks, getting to know them. Friendships. They are like dating! So yeah, turns out, this person slowly has revealed themselves to not be what/who they say they are. Reveal themselves to actually not be a good person at all (in my estimation). The slow break up of a friendship because the other party won't even communicate with me, even when I have done nothing but be an awesome friend to this person.
meh.
so I have come to the decision that it's over. and it hurts like breaking up with a boyfriend.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
